Sometimes it is difficult to know why you are alive at all, and we try to find it's meaning from outside sources, but you can't find it there, if you want to find it you have to look inside.
“The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt
Your life purpose is what you want to be, being what your heart wants, but what you heart truly wants, not what you believe what your heart wants, because our beliefs are generally, what the society wants us to be, and that is not true purpose. True purpose is when you forget everything, and just happy doing your work or otherwise enjoying completely what you are doing, that you forget about eating, sleeping or do anything, except of what you are currently doing, time flies by and you don't even realize it, that is true purpose.
Purpose doesn't always mean serving others or life dedicated to others, although these are good things, you must first be true to yourself, does living for other, helping others, makes you happy then you should definitely do it, it's a good deed.
But the most important deed is to be true to yourselves, do what you desire, but this doesn't mean your desires should affect other people lives in a negative way, because that is wrong, and that is what not your heart desires, that is what you think what your heart desires, because your heart doesn't want to harm anybody for fulfilling itself, because your heart always finds a purpose where it is better for you, and for everybody else, it is always designed that way.
But you will always have to follow your life purpose because without it you may lead a life but it will never be to your fullest potential, there will always be a feeling that you are missing something inside you and that feeling will haunt you till death, you should listen to your heart it is always telling you something, because if you keep avoiding it, it will stop speaking to you and you will be stuck in a never ending cycle of a normal mediocre life never realizing your true potential and finding out your true bliss.
Stop running in the opposite direction and start running in the right direction, because even the process of reaching your purpose will fill you with energy that nothing in this world can give you, and set you free.
This is my advice to you Vishal, follow your heart and always remember your life motive.
What if after you die God asks you:
So, How Was Heaven?
Prepare for one hell of an answer.